I don't know why I woke up thinking aboutthis subject today. But I thought I'd write it down and put it out there.
I miss girl days. I've always had one good girlfriend around to play with. Singing into hairbrushes. Dressing up in boas to go to a coffee shop. Putting on pink nailpolish and butterfly shirts and driving around looking for adventure. But now I don't. And I miss it. I miss being able to just laugh about silly things and hear the female perspective on issues.
I don't want to come across as unhappy or ungrateful for what I have. I am satisfied for the most part. I just miss how things were sometimes. And now it seems very unattainable. It seems hard to formulate that kind of friendship when you get older, and it's sad and sort of lonely.
C has a best friend. They work on motorcycles together and laugh about things like music and cars and all that. They are very different people but I think that makes them like each other more. They see how the other views things and it interests them to look at it differently.
I'm jealous of that. And maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself (probably). But it just feels good to write it down and get it out.