I have been ruled by fear lately. I don'tknow how exactly I fell into this pattern, but it's here and it's got to stop. I'm afraid.
Sometimes things seem so easy. I think of the worst thing that could happen and how I'd survive it. What's the worst? Being poor? Being a failure? Being rejected? Aren't those things people recover from? I certainly could. I'd just change directions. People do that everyday. Are those things even important, anyway?
Other times I think about how difficult things are. There are ten million people out there doing their thing....being daring...being successful...being something. And I don't even want to compete. I'd rather just lie down and surrender.
It's just so easy to feel comfortable and accept the safety net that is layed out for you. It's so easy to just go along status quo and only dream about changing it. But actually making change happen is risky. It's scary. It's unsafe. But it's exciting and daring, too.
So, I have come up with a masterplan. My masterplan that consists of baby steps that I will stick to in order to bring about the change in myself. And I will do it.
I don't want to look back at my life and feel like I could've done it differently and better. That I missed opportunities because I was too fearful. And that is my incentive.
Now I'll raise my fist and charge (to the coffee shop for some java). Hey, it's a step.