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Just a shift in perspective.Today I'm feeling blue. I'm not really sure why, to be honest. Nothing has changed since yesterday. The sun is still shining, the house is still peaceful, the world is still changing colors... but for some reason I'm feeling lonely. Like no one knows me. And it's not because I haven't talked to people. I make sure I get out of the house at least once a day. I talk to people. I try to get some exercise. I interact with the world.

It's just shift in perspective. That kills me. There are so many ways to look at something and if you choose one, you feel good about it. And if you happen to choose the other, without knowing it, it's all messy and chaotic and fretful. Why don't we have more control than that? I wish I knew so I could change it.

Why do we sometimes feel like there's a bright shiny light going on inside. And then other times it feels like that light has been burnt out for days, cobwebs forming around it.

I just realized that above I used the word "choose". Hmm... maybe we do choose how we are feeling. Is it that simple? It doesn't feel that simple.

I don't want to go on about it, so I'll stop. Maybe I'll take a break and go relax or something. Maybe that will help. Maybe that's what we can choose.