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Evolution in Fast Action Oh SAJ, you're right. This has been a sorry excuse for a blog lately. I know it. You know it. Everybody knows it. But you know how it is...just needing a break sometimes. I'm feeling better now. Here's why:

I've been experimenting my little hiney off. Literally. I have to stand now at all times.

Not really. I'm kidding. Here's why:

I've been experimenting my little hiney off. It all started when I got some criticism and some rejection-lined notes from a few sources that I respect. Criticism is good. It makes you look at the things that need to be looked at. It put me into a spin. I looked harshly at my work. I put it under those nasty yellow fluorescent lights to see the lines and the age spots that you overlook when in diffused light. I think I saw my work as it is.

And I realized that I'm not where I want to be. And that's the hard part about criticism. Sometimes you realize that you're not where you want to be. You realize that you cannot be stagnant. You have to move and evolve and change.

(I do realize that you cannot trash all your old work because there is some value there. It's like a trampoline. You need all those springs to hold up the middle...take some out and the trampoline gets weaker.)

So with that in mind, I've been adding more springs to my trampoline. I've been using lots of inks and lots of paints. I've trashed my studio with prints and trials and errors. And even some good stuff. My style is growing. Up, down, sideways, I don't know...

I am evolving. I am watching it happen. And that, to me, is very weird. It's like watching your hair grow. Something that is supposed to take a while is suddenly moving quickly. (and yes, I realize I have 50 years in which to evolve, but right now is special to me).

One weird thing in my evolution right now is that I am not sure where I'm going. WHAT AM I DOING? Where am I headed? I don't really know. I wonder where I'll land.

I'm not sure if this makes sense all written out here. I am going through this and these words don't even make sense to me as I reread it! eesh. I will try to explain better later if I can. My apologies.