I think I'm finally getting into it. Finally settling in and becoming a part of something I've always wanted to be. I am not holding back any part of me. And for some reason that's really freeing. For some reason I feel like that gives me permission to say what I feel needs to be said, to joke around and not be afraid to look dumb, to be completely myself. People can take it or leave it. And that's okay with me.
I read something (I can't remember where) that said that you should not save up your good ideas. Spend them every time. Use them all up. Because once you let them go, new ones take their place. New ideas that are better or go beyond the old ideas. I think this is another step in this rapid evolution I've been experiencing. And I love having the opportunity to do the best that I can. I don't always like the outcome, but I feel good in having created something nonetheless. I think it's an exercise in letting go...something I'm always struggling with.
Spend the ideas.
Let it go.
Yeah, feels good just to write that.
There is such an energy going around right now. I'm not sure where it comes from. But I feel that it's positive. And that there are some really kick ass things coming in the future that I just need to let get here.
I'm probably not making much sense...I apologize. I am just trying to get some thoughts out before they are gone. Using them up.