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Finding a style is really hard. Sometimes I feel like I'm there. Sometimes not even close. Do I have to do every piece in paint and line? Can't I use a pencil and digital color? Is that okay? Is it still "me"? My work... I don't know. I do know that I devote far too much time to thinking about this (I'm sorry to my husband and close friends who here me go on about this constantly). I just want to do a bunch of work and have it all hang together. But I'm not sure it will/does.

Today I finished a painting for a friend's poetry book. I didn't do my "usual". I did a mini painting instead. Lots of detail. Painty little lines. And I like it. But I can't put it in my portfolio...because it doesn't really belong there.

Do you know what I mean? Agh. Frustrated.