an update... holy crap!

Hi there! Thank you for all the sweet comments and words of encouragement about Veda's birth story. So weird that so many women go through the same thing for similar mysterious reasons. But it's good to know that we're not alone! I'm done grieving for my c-section route... it is what it is.

And I'm finally feeling a little better... for 6 weeks after the birth I had really intense bleeding that didn't stop. Didn't lighten up as we'd hope, and in fact, picked up to the point that we thought we'd have to make a trip to the ER one scary night to get me fluids and meds. That night was long and super frightening... I was happy to be up all night with Veda so I would be able to keep an eye on myself too.

The next day I visited the doctor who prescribed a couple of medications and within the week the bleeding finally stopped. Then of course, I got sick. And I'm still sick here. Damn! Right?! So hopefully things will be healing really soon and I'll be my old healthy me again. I think all the blood loss led to me feeling even more lethargic and sluggish. So I'm so ready to feel some energy again. You know?

What I find especially bizarre is that I am normally super super healthy. Like rarely catch a cold or get an infection. I eat well, don't smoke, don't drink and exercise regularly. My doctor just looked at me and said: "Hey, will ya stop it already?!" And I just shrugged my shoulders.

Dang sauce.

But in good news land: Veda has started taking naps occasionally in her swing, which frees me up a bit. I've been able to do the dishes and make lunch and -- stop the presses -- shower every now and then! I'm no longer the stinky kid!

She's also moved from on my chest at night to sleeping in the boppy in the basinet right beside me. It's a little convoluted... but she's not ready to sleep on her back yet and the boppy helps her to feel that she's being held. And I'm a really light sleeper and wake up with each flutter of her eyelids or tiny grunt in her sleep. Which is good... and bad... It means I don't get sound sleep at all. But it seems my body is adjusting and I feel more normal with less sleep.

But hopefully this won't last forever. I've heard stories of babies who sleep through the night. hee. If you are one of those moms: I hate your guts. :) (Not really...)

And the best new: Veda is smiling now. Melt your heart smiles and playful smiles. She's got 'em all. Here's proof:

As you can see, she's a smiling pro. We're so proud!

Oh, and she's plumping up nicely! She is getting weighed at the doctor's tomorrow... but I know she's gained a ton because she's fitting into newborn sleepers now, which makes life much easier. :)

I am eager to start blogging more now... let's see if I can swing it!

xo all!