A few weeks ago (before squam) I had some blood work done to test for problems with the baby... all that scary stuff like spina bifida, cystic fibrosis, downs, etc... The doctor recommended we do the tests just be prepared, and we agreed.
Well, yesterday we finally got the phone call with the results -- All clear. No problems foreseen thus far. The baby is healthy.
I said thank you to the nurse, hung up the phone, reported to Colin that the belly bean is healthy, and immediately started sobbing uncontrollably. It just poured out of me... I was so relieved!
I didn't realize how much tension I was holding about this. I knew it was never far from my mind... People would ask if I want a boy or a girl and all I could respond with is: It doesn't matter either way... All I care about is that the baby is healthy.
And he/she is.
My very core feels lighter today.